My love ...

My  love,
Then what ?
 have they seperated me from you ?
No way,
Then what ?
Have they cut off my feeling of you ?
No way ,

My love,
No wander I found like you in this whole universe, that will satisfy this thirst I feel for you ...
No  tears will be enough to weep you, in case I lose you ...

I know Iam drawn to you every day ...
I know that you are deep with me always ..
you will never leave as I never want you to leave
you are in my heart, choosing to stay ...
But waiting for me encouraging  you to bring you up all what you want to say ...

My love,
You have raised me up, and you still ...
with every dawn.. with every sunshine
You knok on my heart, and say
Open, it is me, coming to raise you up again again ... 

The night

The night is nothing but a deep trip towards your past memories, If they are beautiful, they will flow and shine as a birght moon in a blue sky,if they are bitter, the night will be able to shut the echo and slow down its impact ...

Sabra and the lion

Once upon a time, there was a woman called Sabra, she was married and had lived happily with her husband. Time  went  by , Sabra got diveroced, this big  and tragic event caused her a lot of pain and suffering, culturally  it is such big shame and dishonour for women to get  divorced. In  a culture managed and controlled by the masculin society , to  be divorced is considered as  an excution for women ; who get compltely neglected and  rejected by the whole society .

 Without  finding anything to do  and  full  of  hopless and disperation , Sabra   left her  husband home to the direction of  her family home,  crossing the forest, Sabra was really sad and so depressed. Suddenly and on her way , she met a big enormous lion. Sabra felt so much  fear and she stepped back, but the lion noticed her deep scare so  he started his talk : ‘’ Do not feel  scared, Iam not going to harm you, but I wonder how  a woman can have the courage to cross the forest, knowing there might be a danger can threaten her life ?

Sabra felt a bit  safe inside and answered him  : an animal is safer than a human.

 The lion  liked the words of Sabra but he did not show his sympathy , so  he conituned  saying : Don’t you know that I am the king of this forest ?  don’t you know that human and aniamls should respect each otehrs, and their limits. We never come to your world. So why you are coming to mine ?

- Forgive me Mr lion,  But  I am so hurt and hopless, my husband did divorce me, and it  is really such big disaster, what I shall do now, Iam a weak woman, I am being rejected now from my society ...

-The lion says  astonishing : Oh, why rejected ? in my society, no on is rejected ?

-In my world, when women get divorced, they ‘d better seek to commit suicide ..it is so unfair for women  in my community, men  can end up the lives of  their wives by only one word from them spoken at moments of anger and bitter, it is the word of divorce .. Do you see such  unjustice, do you beleive that woman’s distiny is between the hand of a man, can play with it as much as he wants..

-The lion felt sorry and deep compassion for sabra, so as a noble worrior he  said to Sabra and his eys sparkling : Do you stay with me Sabra ? I will be your man, your protector and your worrior .. I will not let any one cause you any harm, no one !

Sabra was so amazed and  found no words to say, but she smiled and  murmured : yes, I am happy to hear you saying that, I would love to stay with you serving you and taking care of you ..

Time passes by and life seems so beautiful and happy with Sabra and the lion . They both  were enjoying their life by showing so much  care and tenderness to eah others, which led to  increase the love between them, and they can’t leave each others . One day, the lion comes hom after the work, but he found his wife Sabra crying and weeping , he run to her ,asking : what s wong with you Sabra, are you fine ?

-Yes, Iam fine, nothing important !

 -How is nothing important ,and I find my wife who I love her so much, crying, for sure it is so important for me, I care for you sweetheart .. what s wrong with you ?

-Yes, I  am suffering now, Iam happy here, but I miss my family so much, I did not see them for two years, I can’t resist this any more ..

The lion smiled and said : it is fine, don’t cry for this please, tomorrow I will take you to your family home , but don’t cry !

Sabra felt happy and  turned to her husband saying : oh really, thank you darling ..

In the morning, Sabra and the lion woke up so early and they start their long trip to Sabra’s family , after a week of walk and  tiredness, Sabra and the lion arrived to sabra’s parent house.

Her family could not beleive their eyes, seeing their daughter for the first time after two years, they haven’t  heard anything from her, since a long time  . So they have celebrated her visit for seven days and six nights.. Sabra stayed there surrounded by her family’s care for seven days .. and  in the last day, before the lion comes to take her home to the forest, she stayed with her mom talking , and she said : I don’t want to go home, I really miss you but Iam married now, I should follow my husband .

The mother  after a moment of silence , she said to her daughter : I can’t beleive that he is so perfect in this way to you;  are you serious that nothing  is wrong with him  ? 

Sabra, kept silent for a moment then said : well, he is  not perfect of course, but I hate so much his smell when he gets close to me, especially the smell of his breath ..

At that moment, the lion was  in front of the door, ready to knock in order to take his wife back to their home in the forest, he was so happy that because he was so in love with his wife, But he was deeply shocked to hear   his wife talking about him in this way . He  stood immobile in front of the door  then he started weeping    ... he  had walked a way few metres , took a place  under a tree’s shadow for  taking his breaths and feel the peace again into his heart .. 

 After a while, the lion knocked the door and he asked permission to take his wife back to their home in the forest ... and this what happened, Sabra walked joyfully with her husband the lion, and she was sining and enjoying the road, happy  and  feeling so cared for , but the husband kept silent the whole trip, seven days  during their trip and the lion was not talking with Sabra, reaching their distination, Sabra felt so  impatient and so surpirsed about the sudden change of her husband, so  she started saying :  what s  wrong with you man ?  why  you are silent the whole trip ?  can I know what s up with you ?

The  lion says after a moment of thinking : ‘’  May I ask you something ?

Sabra answers saying : “ yes, if I can do it, I would love to serve you !

-Yes, you can do it, I want you to take the ax and hit me on the head !

-What ? are you crazy ? no way, I would never do something like that .

 -If you don’t do it, I will allow myself to eat you and make you my lunch !

Sabra felt so  surpirsed and she could  see the  resistance of her husband, his eyes was sparkling and he seemed so confident about his  request , Sabra coud feel for the first time this deep fear , so she found nothing but to surrender to his will. Sabra took an ax and she started hitting him on the head, the lion felt down and  his blood  was all around .. When sabra saw all of that blood, she rushed to her husband, crying and  asking him why he did let her do that ... without undrestanding the intention of the lion from his request. As a good wife, Sabra spent nights and days beside her husband, nursing and feeding him .  After a good while, the lion started  to heal and get cured from his blessures .. and Sabra was still ignorant why he asked her to  do that, so  when  she assured that he is fine, Sabra decided to ask him and to give her an explanation . she said : “ I don’t undrestand why you aswked me to hit you on the head, I could kill you.”

The lion answered back without hesitation : “ you are not strong enough to kill a lion, I was sure that you would not, and if you did, that it was a risk I wanted so much to  take it.”

-         yes , but why ? why was all of that ?

-         I wanted to show you that the blessures can get healed even after a long time, but hurting and breaking someone ‘s heart , nothing will heal it, not even the time”

Sabra felt so much surprised and she could not undrestand what the lion wants to say ,asking him what she did do, she had started to feel the scare : what did I do to you ? how  did I hurt your feelings ? I love you , I would never think to do that for you .

The lion said, after a moment : I heard your conversation with your mother, I heard you complaining from my smell and my breath ?

Sabra, felt as she was a frozen piece, she could not say anthing at the moment, so the lion finished his saying : “ Oh Sabra, don’t you know that  blessures get healed , but the wounds of the heart, will always remain the same . It will never get cured even if  time goes by ...”  Then without any chance given to her to espcae, the lion jumped to Sabra, and ate her ..

As a conclusion to  blessure some one, they may get healed  with time, but the wound of the heart  will   always remains as long as the person is  alive ..  Not because it is hard to  forgive or overcome but it is because people will never forget how you let them feel,wether good or bad ...

                                                 The End... 

Love is my death and my life

Every love has behind it a long story, and in every story , there is so much pain and so much happiness, I looked behind and I realized that It was so worthy and in fact I enjoyed both sides of the game ; the joy of love, that gave me so much energy and add more passion to my soul and  the pain which let me be ready for new beginings..So  I  know  that love has many shapes and we should never  give up in it, for that love has our lives and in its hands our deaths at the same time, No one can undrestand love properly and in fact,we should not undrestand it, that becasue its beauty remains in its  mistery..

A memory Note to my beloved being ...

He was always silent, always alone ... I don't remember him in  our wedding 's parties or in our  sepcial occasions that we celebrate a lot ! 

I never saw  him wiht a frwan on his face, I don't know if some one can believe this, but this is the truth...

Who is he?

He is  a man I am sure he will never happen again, he is an angel, may be, but it is so crestal clear that his kind  don't  live so much .. why shall he,  he is so senstive and so kind , so god willl not  let him suffer and may be he thinks that  he is so worthy to be with humans who are  seeking the  materialist  side of life ... 

When my Uncle left, he was   50  years old . I was told that God gave him many chances  to improve his life, but becasue he was so   senstive and so affectionate, he did give up in the materialist life and  stayed with his family, earning  his  living with what he could work in that time.So  he  worked with  so little salary . What I  remember  about him is a lonly man looking for  an isolated places to  stay on his own, and  meditate, althought Iam sure he had no undrestanding  or awarness about  the meaning of meditation , but he was always in his corner, may be wondering about his exsitence and his purpose  in this  great  deep life    . I do not remember  a lot of things aobut him ! but I do remember some  gestuers he made ; he was always surprising  me ! with his  kind and pure heart ! he was always taking care of his animals, looking for the  negelcted ones, bring them home, and give them a lot of care , tenderness and affection, you can imagine how he was with his fellows. In fact, I was always  touched with so much  tenderness he holds in his heart, He knows nothing about love stuff and the scientific concepts   that  people of nowadays are using , so much   ignorance about his  surrounding  but a lot of  knowledge of  his  heart and his depths. He has a  huge big love  to  this universe and to god  that no one has ever had, no one could  undrestand  him, thats why he  was prefering  the isolated places and the  awayness . What I shall  say about a man , never lied, you never saw  a frown on his face, I never ever  had seen him sad. Not becasue he was so happy in his life but  because he was so happy  with so much little that he had .  I  truelly  loved him and I was always saying to him : I wish I marry someone like you . I never thought for a moment that death will take  him  and  that he would  leave  as quickly as  this . I wish the death was  patient for a bit so he would  be still alive now. I had many things to ask him ;  every time  I met him , I was asking him a question , he was answering me  without  any histation .  but  now I am  more  elder and gorwn up spritually, morally  so I   feel that  I am full of questions  about that  angelic man , who will never happen again. If he was still alive  , I would  may be  undrestand  him and  his character, and may be we  would be so much closer friends .

We were calling him ,the  iron man ! it was a joke.  He was spreading in the air with  his special  presence , the joy and  the warmth  derived from his  tender smiles and his affectionate soul.  Love you so much dear Uncle, still now miss you and  long to you , I am sure that where you are now is much better .

No wonder that you left here, why you should be and there is more comfortable and happier to you . To a man who never dies, always  plays like a child, always smiles,and  always undrestands how to live his life fully even when he has so little . 

Forver love and Forver young ... Uncle Mohsen you are one of the most  wonderful people I have ever seen in my life, you are a man who never  travelled to anywhere, although  you hold in your heart a special undrestaing to concept of love to yourself and to other, to live from the depths, even when you are in your most terrible pains . to a man who  tought me that to be special  is enough to be just  you are ... to a man lived every moment  as he lived for a long time, to a man could  have  every thoughts about beauty and self resepct to nature, to the beings  that surround him and to  God ... 

Visions of love ...

- Instead of storing  out your energy in a broken relationship to be back . You can renew and recharge your  power by giving yourself  the time needed to  heal yourself from the past wounds and attract another one more   balanced and suitable to your needs and requirements. 

- " Every new begining comes from some other new begining's   end ." Unknown.  

How I can talk about love, and  ask people to give me money to do it, how I can  undrestand what the unconditional love is and  ask people to pay me to make them undrestand it ...  love remains where the  hungry mouths  open and  naked hands  ask to be given..not in the material communties nor with the  individualist people who will never have any undrestanding to any unconditonal feelings which are far from any accounting  .. 

Taking the risk always leads to taking the first stairs of success, nothing worthy has ever come easily , no ever change has ever happened quickly , everything takes good time and good will to reach it, only regrets or gratitude what will last at the end; gratitude becasue you did it, or regret becasue you did hesitate so much to make it ..

Calls...

In the middle of a long way,

I turned back to see where I stand

Did  I walked the half way

Or still so much waiting to be done,

I did not recognize the place.

Or where shall I go to turn on the light

It was so much darkness and so noise inside.

I did not know where I should go, outside or inside

and I was comepletely lost, and ignored the roads ...

my heart was so silent and so sad...

The call comes from the trees or the woods,

I don't know excatly but it was so cristal clear..

I was made to be so authentic and so  true...

why did I disturb myself  and I took  the longest road..

something called me from  this dark night ...

and a hand pulled me from the crowad ..

he calls :  go walk, to your light

many roads, yes, but the simplest ways are visible to your sight

cross the paths to your loved ones...

nothing will last at the end of your days .

only sweet memories and the touch of your warm heart...

this what will be matter to keep  during the walk along that night ... 

Art therapy and self love !

Iam 27 years old, I decided to write and to share my own ideas about art therapy ! well for sure Iam missing a lot of knowledge about this field which is so  wide and so rich ! but as an artist starting my carreer, holding in my heart a lot of dreams to share and to help people especially  those who are far from any psychological and emotional support and empowerment !

We all know that  art and healing are walking together on the same path, it is even considered  stronger than the medcinie cure  which is  not permant ,  whereas  healing with art is considered a lasting  and continous cure that  is able to  touch the spiritual guidance and  souls of people  and  arguably it can  help  to transform  the dperessed souls and dispaired visionaries into shining and  healed ones, reviving the old energies and the hidden passions and let them shape and take different forms .

Art brings the self love, satisfaction and the self empowerment, how ? it is a path to our  deep spiritual  oceans .  In this  world, we all have  different  connections and vibrations that can help us to find out who we are and what we want ! art is one of them ! the necessity of  humain being to feel  his creativity and his passionate capacity  in  a given field is so important and great ! art may come to sharpen  this  need, so it helps to release  the gifted passion that you have  and translate it into  an artsitic work ! it is not necessary to  be so  talented  in any artistic activity ! it is enough that you have the passion and  the desire to create and to revive ! The power of art as a healing power is so intense and reasuring , it is generating the self-empowerment and the self repsect and love.

. “ We believe that making art frees the body's healing mechanisms to heal. We believe it unites body, mind, and spirit. In art and healing, no interpretation or therapy is necessary. The creative process is the healer. Here, art is transformational in itself.”  (http://www.artashealing.org/)

What it is meant above that every one of us  can be his / her own self healer becasue he/ she  can transform the negative energy that he / she holds into positive and vital  one . I talk from a personal point of view becasue I personally experimented a total tranformation in my thoughts, beliefs and habits since practising painting.  The changes  occuring during  my self transformation process, have been great and really  unlimited to count , it is like a prcoess of total rebirth and radical  metamorphosis.

It is important to point out that we have all what I call them a burned  talents and gifts, yes, many of us are not really brillant at expressing  their gifts and they feel that they don’t have anything in return to give, but they do forget  to ask themselves what makes them  happy and what  makes them feel  fullfilled ! Yet,  it is not improtant that they should be practising any art ! what is important is to  join the cycle of any artistic activities. Let your self be involved  in the passion and in the fiery creativity, any one with hesitant and passive soul will for sure reach up the phase of  rebirth and a calling to give as much as he/ she can . In art ,it resides an infinite love to translate the self thoughts and  another love to prove that you are able to create and to add your own touch ! From here the magic seeds of art have been born.

At any  stage of the practice , the process of   self healing  will lead you to undrestand what is  considered  enjoyable to  you , then it will allow and facilitate what kind of art you choose to practise and how you take it   as a process of healing . According to this, and with time , the love of practising any artistic activity will overcome the love to send negative energy and vibrations to the world. The power and the impact of being involved in any artistic event also, can bring to people self reliance and self enchanting to the soul. Like attending conferences of poetry , art shows, concerts, etc . All of such efforts made by us can replace our needs to visit a psychologist ! you can be your own healer and psychologist. The creative process of art healing ‘s  force is so deep and touchable ! therapists  may succeed to  reach you, but for sure no one can help to reach your depths much  better than you ! Becasue  the  process  of expressing by art will let you travel within the misteries of yourself and discover what entertains you  and what leads you to self –release of the negative energies ! for exmaple in my case, painting and playing with colours has allowed me to let go of negative feedbacks I have had , recharging my self with new and strong passion to go ahead ! for sure we can’t cut completely with the past, but we can heal the past by accepting it peacefully inside us !
 That s why, it is so hard to focus on a specific healing ‘s side of  art force because it is infinite and unlimited  ! here is my only advice for you, follow your bliss as Joseph Cambel asks us to do, besides your passions in art and the light  that its healing power brings.

Love ...

It is hard to define what makes you happy in this world, that because many things can bring the joy to us . However we all confirm that love is one of  the most beautiful feelings / things that can revive us and makes us feel  like newly born !  That s why I find anyone who is lucky to find  such worthy feeling, he / she should never give up in that, as the love is  so worthy that we  pay everything  to  have it,  not  the opposite by  giving up in it to have other things !!
We must know that the material target  will be reached sooner or later, but love once is gone, we may not find it agian. Yes, love has many shapes. Yes, we should never give up in love. Yes,  love is beautiful, but we have to realize that it is even sweeter and more beautiful  with certain and special  people ...That s why when we meet it at that moment, we should never give up in it ...

I am in love with love and with its different shapes ... 

                                                                                  

                                                                                  

Just a reminder

• When it is hard to see, because there is so much pain, remember that your pain will not last . And there is a door of happiness will open to you .
• When you are impatient from waiting for your dreams to come true, remember that everything has a good time and will come with a good plan.
• When you feel lonely and no one is there to wipe away  your tears, remember that God is seeing you and listening to your prayers in silence.
• When you feel unsatisfied with anything now  , remember that there are thousands of people around the world are  missing the feeling of care , warmth and protection.
• When you feel the fears from unknown, remember that God is waiting to hear your prayers..
• When you feel unlucky, remember that you are miracle, and nothing will be impossible for a miracle.
• When you feel that your problems have no solution, remember that they are only a temporary experiences through them, God is willing only to test you .
• When you are ungrateful for what your hands hold now, remember that there are many who are dreaming to get what you  have .

So learn positivity from your  hard times,  patience from your  fears, Gratitude from people around you, Happiness from who you are , how to  listen  from your pains and how to love from the beautiful God who is silent but never sleeps and loving  us always, although  our faith seems to be gone sometimes…

Some steps of self healing process :

•   Think positively about what happened, look at your storm from the bright side .

•   Revive the  hidden energy and  believe that really something wonderful is waiting to happen  and  whatever happened to you, believe that the best is yet to come .

•  Instead of the negative thoughts, try to replace them with funny thoughts and enjoy your time through  listening   to music, share most of your time with  friends, offer a service to some one in need , and try to entertain by surrounding yourself with  positive and  funny people that bring the joy to you.

•  Think that nothing will last at the end, your wounds will be healed, so it is only a matter of time .

•  Love yourself enough to let go of the old memories that sadden you .

•  Imagine the beautiful and the happy things and your dreams . 

•  Think of yourself  in advance that at a given moment , your sorrow will leave you.

•  Believe that whatever is happeing to you right now, in the end, it will find a solution and really it will be fine.

•  Pray to God to end your sorrow. Faith has a big impact on our healing process to find the inner peace 

• Ultimately, believe that it could  have never  been better than it was .